Becoming Me, Again: The Journey of Matrescence

 

They tell you about the sleepless nights, the feedings, the diaper blowouts, the love so big it almost hurts. 
But no one really warns you about matrescence. 

Matrescence  is the physical, emotional, hormonal, and psychological transition into motherhood. It's kind of like adolescence — but instead of pimples and prom dates, it's identity shifts an soul-deep awakenings. 

It's your body changing in ways that feel foreign, your emotions stretching in directions you didn't know existed, and your heart learning to hold both joy and grief in the same breath. 

Becoming a mama doesn't just hand you a baby. It hands you a mirror. 

You begin to ask, or at least I do:

Who am I now? 

Where did the old me go?

Why do I feel so much all the time?

You might miss the woman you were before — the one with more freedom, fewer stretch marks, and a clearer sense of self. And that's okay. Missing her doesn't mean you or I love our babies any less. It means we're human. It means we're growing. 

Matrescence isn't a moment—it's a season (sometimes a long one). It's the slow becoming. The shedding of what was. and the tender unfolding of what is. It's the permission to be a masterpiece and a work-in-progress at the same time. 

In this in-between place, there is beauty. 
In the mess, there is meaning. 
In you, Mama — there is strength deeper than you know. 

So if today feels like too much, or not enough, or both somehow—breathe this in:

You are not lost. You are becoming. 
Becoming braver. Becoming softer. Becoming who we were always meant to be. 

This is matrescence. 
This is you, becoming reborn again alongside our babies. 

And we're doing beautifully.